something new

I saw the doctor today. It was the first time Dr. Polito and I met -- needless to say, I was wracked with nerves. When he first entered the examining room, there was an instant mental sigh of relief. Perhaps it was his mild-mannered looking face and demeanor. I don't know, but somehow I felt like I could trust him. We started talking about my high blood pressure and he asked about how I sleep. I said that was funny he should ask because my gf thinks I have sleep apnea. He suggested that she watch over me while I sleep to examine it closer. Then we talked about alcohol. He basically threw the book at me about my drinking and made some well intentioned suggestions toward quitting. (It's hard to say how far I'll take to them... but I'm going to try not to indulge for tonight.) Next, I mentioned the blood when I "go" and he referred me to a urologist. Well, somehow thinking it was all related I didn't think it wasn't pee but poop guy I had to see, I called back clearing the misunderstanding. Finally, he prescribed meds for anxiety called Wellbutrin. That'll have to be another blog entry. Anyway, I was wanting a change and though it's not exactly what I bargained, maybe it's what I need right now.

not quite there yet...

Okay, this is merely a personal rant about life these days as a 9 to 5:30er and weekend (anything but) warrior. Yep, I find myself in an endless cycle of unpredictable monotony. Library work has proven to be mindless and a sad excuse to pass time. (But there are obvious perks like having the financial means to purchase xbox games and a 30 pack of natural ice twice a week.) Sad but true -- beer, games, and internet "stuff" are the mainstay of our existence. Somehow, seeing it in writing makes it seem a slightly less bitter truth. Maybe there is something therapeutic about this blogging stuff. Okay, I don't think I'll delete this entry.